I'm a Star!

I have been watching a bit of porn lately and all of the material I had read as an under-graduate ninny came flooding back to me while I watched a close up of a penetration. I saw what is being seen so clearly: pussy. The female leads are the stars, getting paid more, yet having to show more and perform more. I watch her get cum sprayed on her face and her arse spread wide. I listen to her scream and pant and want more and I see her exclaim on her face. I could go on. I also see cock, but mostly only cock, never a face and hands, hands inside the woman, hands moving her around, hands around her throat. So whose gaze is it? I dont mind a bit of porn, in fact I like it, but it sits uneasily on me, this borrowed gaze, as if i may be someone else.