Because I cannot help myself...

More writing that I have found...damn I should keep all these habits under control.

Regardless of how many lovers or time spent with lovers, I always feel like it is the first time. That feeling of shock when someone does not just part your legs, but goes deep inside you, has never left me. I crave it and I push my hips into it, but that moment of tension never fails to disgust me. This is the legacy of my virginity.