Process

Yesterday was a great day and although I did not write anything about it at the time, the rememberence of it will be good. Yesterday I realised with certain fact and complete knowing that we can never make the same mistakes. Moment to moment I am different, because I have changed. I can never be that what I was previously, I can only be constantly evolving. If I repeat something that I have done previously, an action, a decision, this performance is part of the building of experiences within living. By nature of the fact that I am constantly in a state of flux means that every previous decision or action has generated reaction. When I repeat something (make the same mistake) it is done with a complete knowing and understanding, either consciously or subconsciously of the implications of that decision or action. The unconscious craving for a the repeat of a sensation, whether it be a positive or a negatie affirmation, is always learned. So we dont always make the same mistakes and we also always learn from our mistakes.

Today is a different day and for some reason I have been thinking about a particular friend over the last few days. She is a puzzle this friend. She says puzzling things. Today, just now, a thought struck me as I was reading about sequential analysis of business records in the DIRKS manual (egads!) that everything I had assumed about our friendship may possibly have been made in error. Fights we had had previously (there is something interesting as I rarely fight with friends), as well as reactions to situations. Now I must re-write our history in my head. Finally, it is interesting when this situation occurs, because how does the re-write affect the present? I will never know if I am right about the history revision, because too much time has passed for me to ask. How do you ask a question like that anyway?
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