More personal than neccessary....

Why do we continue to do things that are no good for us? There is this man who says he wants to be with me, but I don't know why. He is confusing and I suspect trouble with a captial T. He makes things complicated when...OH GOD I 've just had a revelation. He's an aries and I just remembered what my Aries friends like to do - make things harder and more complicated than they really are. I think they do it so they can create artificial subtext in order to make meaning in their lives. ps. to all my Aries friends - I say this with love. Anyway, who knows if this is what he is doing really. I love him cos he is all songs and fire, but I hate him cos he is so random and evasive. I let him back in when I told him to leave and now I'm back where I started - with nothing. He sends me sms' and emails and says he loves me and yet he does not show me the love. He shows me nothing. Now, after I forgot him, he is taking up space in my thinking time again. And I let him. I do it. I choose it. Is this what I love about boy love? It doesn't matter what anyone says, I continue to link to him. He makes me irrational and emotional and I cannot stop myself. Lucky. I never see him then.