Friday, December 29, 2006

South West Western Australia...coming home













I have included some pictures to show what Bunbury is all about. I read the wikipedia entry for Bunbury and its pretty good. It mentions Aristos Papandroulakis, but makes no mention of his fish and chip store and how much tourism and attention it receives. Maybe I should update the entry. As I sit here in my sarong, which I have only taken off to go into town or to sleep, I smile when reading the line: Bunbury’s climate can best be described as Mediterranean in this website. Ah joy!

I have tried not to say "coming home" as this is not my home. However, my dedication to the absence of 'home' seems silly when I called the backpacker in Hobart that I stayed at and hated, 'home'. This place, Bunbury, is where my mother lives, it is home for her, for me it is a free ride and a holiday.

As to where my actual home is, well that is something to be considered. Thinking about it now I realise that home is a place, an atmosphere, your surroundings. Not just a house. Right now I would say that Melbourne is pretty 'home-ish' for me, although I never lived anywhere longer than 18 months in the entire 6 years I lived there. I did frequent St Jerome's for longer. Even The Joint. Are these places my home? (Not including The Joint - I was just making a point - ew).

I have set up 'house' in a room in my mother's house. It is OK. I have my puter and my net and a fan and a sarong. I have recovered from my shock of leaving and am starting to adjust. Yesterday I called the pound to collect two hungry stray dogs roaming the streets and today I went for a early morning bike ride. I am fitting in.

The other thing of note that I anticipated, but had temporarily forgotten about, was seeing old school friends. I do not have any old school friends left. The last one I finally ditched for being a completely horrible bitch. She was to me through high school and although we were 'best friends' and I was maid of honour at her wedding, she is rude and tactless and I find that unneccessary. Enough explanation? Anyway, she was the last and now there was none in the bed. Two days ago I happened to glance in the direction of another member of the gang of chicas I hung out with in high school. I was walking into Target and it took me a good 10 minutes to remember her name. First name - the surname is still lurking in the depths.

Diane. I remember her as being overtly sensual and me being fascinated and intimidated by this. She wrote me a letter in the first year I went to uni in 1991 and once when I slept over her house, I saw her nose bleed profusely for hours for no reason. I remember there was something about her parents that was odd and that she had hair growing in a patch on her neck cos of her 'ethnicity', whatever that was. She looked the same the other day as she did in high school.

Diane also went out with a boy whom I had some semblance of a crush on. Back in high school I had not classified the crushes yet, so I did not know what they were in reference to. The boy she went out with was called Troy and all he ever wanted to do was join the army. He thought I was cool cos I liked the Beastie Boys. Troy had a flat top hair cut and was very much like Robert Duvall's Apoloypse Now character, Lt. Colonel Kilgore. So the reminiscing begins. I am interested in what will happen if I do bump into someone. You know that point where you cannot not say hello.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas

Good morning. It is 7.29am Perth time and the sun is doing its shine thing and I am wondering why I am wearing this santa hat when it is clear to me that Christmas is for the foolish. I do not get presents - considering I do not give presents that all seems fair to me. I am not feeling a lack. What has been given to me in the last 24 hours is a sense of shock and bewilderment. Of course I knew that I was moving. I was aware that I had to pack my stuff and leave. I am in shock. I feel numb. I am not sure why exactly. Perhaps it is because I have ripped that bandaid off and I had an abcess underneath. Oh well. I have written too much about this already. Enough of the pathetic analogies. I am witless and morose today. Merry Christmas.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Moving.

I am back from Tas and am back in full panic mode which brought me to the post office with two untaped boxes at 11.45am this morning the day before I leave to go to WA. $75 later, I have sent some of the most important bits of my life to Bunbury - things such as my paint box, text books, trinkets I have had my whole life and my collection of sex toys. Oh yeah, Australia Post now is in possession of items that would cause me the most embarrasment if discovered. So of course I write about them for the whole world to ponder. So...
I am slowly getting there. So much rubbish, so little time. Must remember to take the coffee pot. I am changing my address and location today. Ciao Melbourne. I'll be back!!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Tasmania

Well I have been in Tas for a couple of days now and have managed to find a place to fulfill my cyber passion for a bit. I am at this backpacker in Devonport that used to be a nurses quarters and then a home for the old and frail. Somehow I think it apt my mother is here with me. Anyway, apart from the constant elderly jokes and my mothers hysteria, Hannah's chronic lying and my apparent inability to comprehend (deliberately) what my mother is saying to me, we have managed not to kill each other... yet. I cannot post any photos as no one brought a usb cable with them. Frankly, you are not missing out on anything as far as I am concerned. I ate cheese and chocolate today and then noticed later my chins are growing again. Snoof.

ps. I am going to learn the art of tying shoe laces from my niece at some point on this trip, including the many touch points and trouble areas to look out for. I will include these instructions in a later post.
pps. I did very well on my exams and uni marks. I'll make librarian yet.
ppps. The world is strange.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

OH GOD

I am discovering a pattern of behaviour about myself. Its intriguing as well as horrible, because as objective as I am, I am still trapped inside it. Moving. I am leaving Melbourne. I stopped sleeping properly when exams finished and have worked my hysteria up to only sleeping 5 hours a night and waking up like I have already had that line of speed. I am at critical point panic stations with no turning back. I am living it. OH GOD.

The perception shift from being to leaving is incredible. I have been noticing all the details of Melbourne and remembering what it was like when I first arrived, just over 6 years ago. I am crippled with panic, but it is not manifesting itself as the whirlwind of brain function as per usual: where I cannot stop thinking about what it is that I have to do and I am making constant mental lists. This is different. This is where you are whipped into a frenzy where energy overload goes into hyperdrive and you make mistakes because you have not been watching everything go by and this means that you panic knowing that you will make mistakes and then this adds to the frenzy.

I cant write anymore. I think I am about to have an aneurism.